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fake plastic trees

2008-05-15T14:17:46Z

Its been more than six years since I ran with such intensity. Its a strange feeling you get when you come to grips with some of the obstacles you face.

I have finally been able to release the load I have carried for a while. Something that I remember doing for too long now. It feels a lot like freedom, but I'm sure its just the calm before the storm. Now that I have offloaded it all, things are starting to clear up, and it all culminated in my run.

As I forced myself to make 100% velocity and as fast as my fat legs could carry me, it became really quiet. Just the loud panting from my struggling to force air into those smoke corrupted lungs.

It was bittersweet when it came over me, as i stumbled into the car and puffed my first cigarette of the evening. I miss you terribly, and I love you, but I don't think I would ever go back there. It's time I put this to rest. I hope you find someone right for you that makes you happy.

I know I deserve more. Goodbye you.

Just below my house

2008-03-31T16:28:35Z

tips anyone?

2008-03-24T13:38:06Z

Alright, i have less than a month to prepare for my GMAT. If anyone has tips, now is the time!
I'll also take prep-books and recommendation letters!

renewed faith

2008-03-19T13:07:25Z

nothing absolutely nothing renews faith like a client saying to you that they are truly impressed by your work. :D

did you know?

2008-03-13T16:40:49Z

Its freaking cold tonight, like 21 deg C or something. So being the bored person i am, i found out that the lowest recorded temperature in Singapore is 19.4 C on January 31, 1934. So cool. :D

lifengfeng @ 2008-03-11T16:27:00

2008-03-11T08:33:24Z

I think we got butchered, but i'm quite proud of the team.

I don't think just anyone can go home to sleep at night thinking you went all out to battle against giants like Maurice & Charles and Ogilvy. I'm glad we put up a fight, cause now i know if i ever had to go down again, it would be fighting.

lost words

2008-03-02T17:00:30Z

I left the door unlocked to prove that i could be different. I left it open to one day have the opportunity to offer the thief a hot meal and a conversation. I just never thought that it would be you, to steal the most irreplaceable part of my existence while i was sleeping.

I hope you find what you are looking for so badly.

the view at my window

2008-02-24T10:10:56Z

at the age of 26 i have decided to leave my comfort zone.

2008-02-23T11:28:55Z

when i think about it, its strange because most people i know strive to achieve comfort, but i'm making a conscious decision to depart. everything about it was good, and yet it got me nowhere. isn't that what comfort is suppose to be, a place to be your-self, but everything is so wrong now.

i will read, and devour every piece of relevant literature like there is no tomorrow. i will study, like if i didn't i would be turned away like an outcast. i will dress up like people judge me for what i wear. i will clean my room and do my chores like my mother would want me to. i will humble myself and learn from my staff and superiors. i will drink and drive, and not have a care in the world. i will buy new furniture, new clothes, and new toys. i will be more outgoing and sociable. i will take photographs, and they will be discovered as timeless insights into the life here. i will care like that is all that mattered. i will be fearless and care less about embarrassing myself in the face of my experienced industry peers. i will tell my clients that they should listen to me. i will be your boss because you asked me to.

I will try to leave my comfort zone.

Change

2007-06-29T18:05:34Z

I wonder how much you have changed?

I look back at my pictures and see me, but, its not really.
we were so happy back than, or maybe it was carefree.
i think i need to find that again, that lost part of me.

So if i'm me now, than who was i than? so strange.

busybusybee

2007-05-25T13:45:50Z

Its really strange when you set out with pre-concieved notions of just how much work you can take.

Just when i thought you couldn't get any busier than this, the projects are piling on like there is no tomorrow. It's like if we just trip once, just once, it'll be the mistakes of our lives. Maybe its finally reached the time when we should sit down to pick and choose the things we don't want to do.

I must say 9 major projects, and 15 minor projects is quite too much for 3 guys running a video department.

lifengfeng @ 2007-03-28T09:11:00

2007-03-28T01:17:56Z

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Marianne Williamson

lifengfeng @ 2007-03-26T23:47:00

2007-03-26T16:17:55Z

Day 1 of school 2001.

"I want to design, I want to communicate"

Year 1 of school 2001.

"I want to do tv, i want to tell stories"

Year 2 of school 2002.

"i want to be a photo-journalist, i want to capture those moments"

Year 2 of school 2002.

"I should stick to advertising, be a creative, maybe some day I'll be able to start my own agency "

Year 3 of school 2003.

"I'm taking pictures, designing books, and working on a student documentary. I should know what i want to do after this, right?"

Year 3 of school 2003.

"Do a film, something close to our hearts"

Day 1 of National Service 2003.

"Have to get off our asses and do this, if we don't we're going to grow old and forget about it."

Time whizzes by ...

4 Years into The Kallang Wave, and Orbital 2007.

One documentary, many photographs and a founding partner of an agency, and I'm not any closer to knowing what i want to do.

lifengfeng @ 2007-03-22T11:30:00

2007-03-22T03:30:39Z

Book Tickets NOW!

http://tickets.cathay.com.sg/(S(n3prgf452cyzvsfygrpkmfy4))/visSelect.aspx

lifengfeng @ 2007-03-08T10:07:00

2007-03-08T02:08:04Z

Apologies,

Premiere is 5.30pm not 7.30pm.

lifengfeng @ 2007-03-07T23:43:00

2007-03-07T15:49:19Z

http://www.thepicturehouse.com.sg/happy1st.html

Hi All,

Cathay, The Picturehouse has officially launched publicity regarding the Happy 1st anniversary film festival. This is where THE KALLANG WAVE will premiere, so if you want to buy tickets to the official opening, you wanna book the 7.30 screening. There will also be a short meet the film-makers session at 7pm where the public will get to ask questions and what not.

See www.thekallangwave.com for details. : )

feng

lifengfeng @ 2007-02-27T17:37:00

2007-02-27T09:37:42Z

It's up people!

www.thekallangwave.com

Lala What is the Kallang Wave?

2007-02-22T12:57:31Z

Yes i'm shamlessly flaunting our teasers. We need all the ground publicity we can get, so if you can folks please cut and paste the ([ ]) and change to (< >)to copy the embed code for our teaser and put it on your journals so other folk will see it? High traffic please, we're aiming for blockbusting records!

CUT HERE

[embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://flash.revver.com/player/1.0/player.swf" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" scale="noScale" salign="TL" bgcolor="#ffffff" flashvars="mediaId=178349&affiliateId=69626" wmode="transparent" height="392" width="480"][/embed]

This is what it will look like. : )

What is The Kallang Wave?

2007-02-21T09:14:20Z

http://thekallangwave.livejournal.com/

Locking of LJ account

2007-01-24T05:23:53Z

Hi All,

Thank you everybody for reading, but it has come to that time where i have lock up this LJ. The film is about to be launched, and since i have tons of "need-to-know-basis" information about the film here, it's time i prying eyes out.

The embargo is also important as any leak of information could potentially hurt the film's publicity strategy. Hope everyone understands, if you've been reading and want to continue, nows the time to opt in to the access list. : )

Chow
feng

Ask yourself.

2007-01-22T03:55:55Z

What is The Kallang Wave?

ODODODODODODODOD

2005-06-20T06:42:43Z

I'm in dire need of some form of cartharsis, stress levels are peaking almost all the time so much so i can practically feel my nostrills acknowledging boyle's law to equalise the pressure of being outdoors from my room. Some days i sit staring at my work almost losing my mind, vertigo strikes and the whole room seems to shrink around me, or expand for that matter till i am smaller than an ant's world view.

I guess the pressure of doing this form of work is inevitable, it just gets so suffocating being so lengthy and not being able to see the fruits of your labour materialize fast enough to feel any adrenaline anymore. (or maybe i'm just de-senstisized already) Production OD. I dont think i'm crying failure or chicken yet, but ask me to do this all over again when its done, and i'd assure you i'll have second thoughts.

Opportunities are opening up on a variety of fronts though including commercial work and independent alliances. We'll never know, maybe, just maybe in 5 years after slaving my flat ass till the sun don't shine no more, we'll realise all of this and be a success story. Wusa, till than just gotta not count my chickens till their hatched.

Anyway, I'm taking suggestions or business dealings of any nature that will make me lose stress, keep me awake, or help me work at hyper speed. (ie. if you've got acid, call me) kinda shit so drop your namecard in my messages and i'll get back to you.

PS: if you haven't heard from me in ages, and i haven't been picking up my calls, its cause i'm really raelly really busy, so sorry. I'll really try and find the time to call back hopefully soon. Soon!

Saturday Morning

2005-06-18T01:28:31Z

Saturday Morning.

Another weekend, another working day. Just another day in our lives. : )

Update

2005-06-08T06:36:57Z

I hate it when you spend the entire day doing your laundry hoping it'll be perfect weather and during the next morning, Just as you're gonna collect it, it pours like there's no tomorrow. *curse and swear*

I'm sinking deeper and deeper into my work, i notice a slow change in priorities, longer hours, harder concentration, more yelling, and more stress. We're approaching crunch time, you can smell the stress in the air. Even when i'm home alone, and no one is around to bother me, my mind is turning the wheels of work and chewing morsels of thought. *phew* i just keep feeling that what im doing is just not enough to get us by yet.

Well, at least i've got my lucky stars to count. Things could be a lot worst, we could have not acquired any sponsorship yet, not have a full stash of equipment to do pretty much anything we wanted, gotten sued for shooting without clearing, not have a vehicle to blitz all around the island on weekends to cover ground, have a crucial team member fall out on us, be using windows to do video editing, not have a house to live in together so we're constantly on each other's backs about work.

Yup, i've got quite a bit going for us, hopefully things will keep going up, cause i've really felt the ground for long enough. Goosefraba.

SIN VS MAL

2005-06-06T17:39:30Z

I"m busted, i've never gone through so many photographs and previewed so much footage in my life. I feel like my eyeballs are gonna go pop or someting. Worst thing is that this isn't even a third of the shit that we're going to gather. 2628 pictures for just 4 shoots is staggering, on a 1:5 ratio. Even the G5 is feeling stressed out, starting to work like a G3. *sigh*