Its been more than six years since I ran with such intensity. Its a strange feeling you get when you come to grips with some of the obstacles you face.
I have finally been able to release the load I have carried for a while. Something that I remember doing for too long now. It feels a lot like freedom, but I'm sure its just the calm before the storm. Now that I have offloaded it all, things are starting to clear up, and it all culminated in my run.
As I forced myself to make 100% velocity and as fast as my fat legs could carry me, it became really quiet. Just the loud panting from my struggling to force air into those smoke corrupted lungs.
It was bittersweet when it came over me, as i stumbled into the car and puffed my first cigarette of the evening. I miss you terribly, and I love you, but I don't think I would ever go back there. It's time I put this to rest. I hope you find someone right for you that makes you happy.
Its freaking cold tonight, like 21 deg C or something. So being the bored person i am, i found out that the lowest recorded temperature in Singapore is 19.4 C on January 31, 1934. So cool. :D
I think we got butchered, but i'm quite proud of the team.
I don't think just anyone can go home to sleep at night thinking you went all out to battle against giants like Maurice & Charles and Ogilvy. I'm glad we put up a fight, cause now i know if i ever had to go down again, it would be fighting.
I left the door unlocked to prove that i could be different. I left it open to one day have the opportunity to offer the thief a hot meal and a conversation. I just never thought that it would be you, to steal the most irreplaceable part of my existence while i was sleeping.
I hope you find what you are looking for so badly.
at the age of 26 i have decided to leave my comfort zone.
[23 Feb 2008|07:11pm]
when i think about it, its strange because most people i know strive to achieve comfort, but i'm making a conscious decision to depart. everything about it was good, and yet it got me nowhere. isn't that what comfort is suppose to be, a place to be your-self, but everything is so wrong now.
i will read, and devour every piece of relevant literature like there is no tomorrow. i will study, like if i didn't i would be turned away like an outcast. i will dress up like people judge me for what i wear. i will clean my room and do my chores like my mother would want me to. i will humble myself and learn from my staff and superiors. i will drink and drive, and not have a care in the world. i will buy new furniture, new clothes, and new toys. i will be more outgoing and sociable. i will take photographs, and they will be discovered as timeless insights into the life here. i will care like that is all that mattered. i will be fearless and care less about embarrassing myself in the face of my experienced industry peers. i will tell my clients that they should listen to me. i will be your boss because you asked me to.
I look back at my pictures and see me, but, its not really. we were so happy back than, or maybe it was carefree. i think i need to find that again, that lost part of me.
So if i'm me now, than who was i than? so strange.
Its really strange when you set out with pre-concieved notions of just how much work you can take.
Just when i thought you couldn't get any busier than this, the projects are piling on like there is no tomorrow. It's like if we just trip once, just once, it'll be the mistakes of our lives. Maybe its finally reached the time when we should sit down to pick and choose the things we don't want to do.
I must say 9 major projects, and 15 minor projects is quite too much for 3 guys running a video department.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
Cathay, The Picturehouse has officially launched publicity regarding the Happy 1st anniversary film festival. This is where THE KALLANG WAVE will premiere, so if you want to buy tickets to the official opening, you wanna book the 7.30 screening. There will also be a short meet the film-makers session at 7pm where the public will get to ask questions and what not.
Yes i'm shamlessly flaunting our teasers. We need all the ground publicity we can get, so if you can folks please cut and paste the ([ ]) and change to (< >)to copy the embed code for our teaser and put it on your journals so other folk will see it? High traffic please, we're aiming for blockbusting records!
Thank you everybody for reading, but it has come to that time where i have lock up this LJ. The film is about to be launched, and since i have tons of "need-to-know-basis" information about the film here, it's time i prying eyes out.
The embargo is also important as any leak of information could potentially hurt the film's publicity strategy. Hope everyone understands, if you've been reading and want to continue, nows the time to opt in to the access list. : )
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